Killing oneself #Prekill
I knew early on that I picked the right title: How to Kill Yourself.
In proper Midwest fashion, I got a bunch of raised eyebrows and looks of disproval but no one blatantly came out to express their sentiments. At any rate, I suppose I have some explaining to do on the conscious choice I made in a time where mental health and suicide are hot button topics. The truth is I’ve been working on this book since 2013 and bit by bit it’s starting to represent such a larger part of my life than I previously expected. The plight of entrepreneurship can’t be truly explained without experiencing it first-hand. I see it as forced evolution in a sense. I’ve noticed that my personal business life has been full of fits and starts based around a need to adapt my approach with each new obstacle. This isn’t a complaint, merely an observation. I’ve failed more times than I care to mention, and lost more money than I can remember. I do know one thing for certain though. I’ve uncovered the main reason that we fail or succeed in business. It doesn’t have too much to do with business in a direct sense, but it does enhance your business when addressed. It’s the ability to evolve. Not to sound all new-agey, I’m talking about the practical aspects of facing problems and roadblocks from a standpoint of seeking solutions rather than finding frustration in shortcomings.
Each time I’ve experienced major roadblocks the path forward represented some new approach or lack of knowledge that I had. No, I’m not saying that I was able to diagnose it at the time, looking back though, it’s pretty apparent that I only lacked based on my own ego and inability to either approach problems differently, find help, or ask for help. Yes, there is a price that must be paid to reach success. The work is elusive, but once you find it, undeniable what must be done. In my case, ego held me hostage while I became acquainted with a form of stagnation that snuck in and convinced me that I was making progress, “grinding” and other euphemisms for work and low/no pay were thrown around loosely. Don’t be like me, don’t get stuck and assume it’s part of some larger process. Even though it really is, I’ve come to the realization that if you can identify these periods of stagnation and speed past them, you can evolve at a rate that’s a little more conducive for building and maintaining momentum.